Wednesday, January 7

White Chicken Chili

I cook a lot. I don't know if I have ever mentioned that. I think I have gotten pretty fair at it. I got a great recipe from a friend, it is so easy and delicious it needed mentioning. Recipes like this are very flexible, use more or less of pretty much everything, follow your taste buds!

White Chicken Chili

48 oz. Jar Northern Beans
4 Chicken breasts
2-3 cups shredded Cheddar cheese, colby jack what ever you have!
1 Jar salsa
Mexican spice - recipe below. LOVE this, use it a ton, but season your chicken how you like it!
1 small can green chilies - for a kick if you want it.
Chili powder to taste

Mexican Spice Blend

1 tb Chili powder
1 ts Cayenne pepper
1 1/2 ts Cumin
1 tb Oregano leaves
1 1/2 ts Onion powder
1/2 ts Coriander
1 ts Crushed red pepper flakes
1 tb Garlic powder
1 tb Black pepper

Blend ingredients together.

Season your chicken with the Mexican spice and bake until done, about 30 minutes. Shred and add to your crock pot with beans, cheese, salsa, and chilies, I also added a bit of sour cream, put it in, leave it out, dollop on top when your ready to eat, whatever! Season to taste with the chili powder, stir well. Cook on low 7-8 hours, high 4-5. This can also be done on stove top just mix it all up and heat through.

Monday, January 5

State Farm

I have turned into one of those women. The women who get all choked up over commercials. I really love this one, it gives me chills, I am such a sap!

James is still fine, no more blood came up after that one time. I didn't sleep very well, and had to fight off the urge to go and check on him every 30 minutes. I did keep reliving it, I couldn't get the image of the vomit in my hands, stained with blood, his face red as his body heaved to get it out. The images feel like wooden splinters in my brain.

When a friend was here with her family her little one year old choked on a cracker. She was heaving and puking, choking, working to get it out, and there were her parents calm as fallen snow, I am panicked and so upset afterwards I sobbed. The Mom, Melissa, came to watch Claralynne yesterday while we went to the E.R. As we waited -way to long- for the ambulance I was so mad, shaking and swearing, she had to kept telling me to try and calm down, I am surprised she didn't slap me across the face and tell me to "get a grip!". When her daughter choked it had been over a year since Claralynne had her choking event, I realized I was not over it then, not by a long shot. Now I have two of these to burden my mind, heart, and spirit. I suspect I wont ever recover, but that is the way of a really bad experience I have found, you never fully get over it, at least for many bad experiances, I haven't yet. Maybe that is just me.

Sunday, January 4

Never Can Think of a Title for These

James choked. Trying to get it out, sweeping his mouth, turned him towards the ground. Vomited twice, then blood, about the size a quarter. 911....again. Glass shard comes out, was from a Christmas ornament Clara broke earlier, didn't get it all off the floor, about the size of a dime, sharp. Ambulance.....again.....hours in the ER....again, X-rays...tears...more tears. Bad Mom, awful Mom. James fine.

Wont get any sleep tonight. Will uncontrollably relive it over and over.

For the agains see here.